TODAY I am informed that my eldest brother was died yesterday due to his high rated diabetes. He is middle age man and serving my country as a soldier since I was an infant. What he could have done in his life with regard to either his country or his own family? In fact he dramatically became a soldier without a plan. I knew about his story from my mum and it was a bit hilarious I thought. But he was dutiful and hard working soldier and got a reasonable position due to his habit of doing anything neat and tidy.
No wonder he couldn't become an officer as he educated until high school and didn't pass matriculation exam. As a result of hard working and long term service, he received a sergeant level recently and he luckily able to earn to support his family. Being a father, he raised his family as high as possible and also seek any chance to help his relatives when they need something within his afford. Of course he supported our family when I was school age boy and my parent are too old to work any job. As a soldier, it's hard to find extra money after spending daily necessities, but he tried to manage to support our family regularly. I don't know how did he manage to maintain it. But I understood nowaday as I am already adult as well as working.
I saw him last year when I return Myanmar for my wedding formal celebration. We rarely met each other despite we came from a same source (meaning same family and product of a mother). It can be as far as once a decade. Being a soldier, he'ld find it difficult to take leaves on what he want. For instance, he didn't arrive in time by the time our mother was died. I still clearly remember the day he cried infront of our mother's tumb. We (all siblings) understood his situation and forgiven him. But he felt so sorry and I could able to see his pain through his tearful eyes. He was real soldier with proud and a lot of medals honoured by Government for his achievement. But this all cannot prevent him to cry out when he saw his mother's tumb. He was such a good man to our family.
Our mother died after fighting long time for diabetes and he heritage this killer disease from his mum. Other will say it's due to generation but the result is he follow his mum so early for the same reason. Few years back his elder sister also passed away for the same reason. Altogether there are 10 siblings in my family. He is third sibling to detach from our family tree. We all love each other and support each other since we lost our parent very early. It'ld be always pleasure time when we enjoy union dinner by teasing each other. In fact it's quite difficult to meet all at the same point because all of my siblings are government staffs and they are serving at different towns. Luckily they all try to present my wedding last year and I was of course very happy to see them all at my wedding day and I really felt I am honoured.
Since I am youngest in my family, they all love me uniquely. They always think me and treat me like a child ever. It doesn't matter how old I am and where I am working as well as how high my position is. What a beloving habit. To me they all are my father and mothers. They all are my teachers. They all are my guiding stars. I can't be exist where I am today without their supporting role and irreplaceable encouragement. Gradually my family tree is eroded by time and now left for 7 only. What a sadful story unable to present his final journey? He tried all the way to present my wedding, but I am now failing to go his funeral because I am now working in a foreign country. Hope, as usual, you will understand me for my absent at your final journey. But I'm sure my soul would be there these days and I'll never forget everything you have done for me in this life.
Today afternoon, all my siblings will go your final resting town from the different cities to pay our final respect and tribute as you are our respectful eldest brother who guided us in going a right track. I don't seek your forgiveness for my absent to pay final respect but I believe you'll understand me. I'ld be in Myanmar next week this time and hopefully I can pay my final respect with late effect as you did when our mother was passed away. What a sorrowful life, my big brother? You, being soldier, is not allowed to live in where you enjoy. Me, a shore job worker, not possess my life and even resemble with a robot that can move by its programme. At the end of the day, we are tired of life and the money we always chasing cannot save our lives. I wish you possess the better and peaceful life if any.
Brother, you will always be alive in our memories. We all know you are a dutiful man to your family as well as country. I praised what you have done and achieved in life as a person. I hope I can follow your footstep in nursing my own family as I am now an expectant father. Life is uncertain and we cannot avoid associated risks. Life is nothing by the time we draw a curtain down. Nothing left. Nothing possess. We left our loved ones for another uncertain life if any. Probably some hero would be remembered by his/her peers. But it won't be long lasting. As our traditional saying mention "Dead man would be forgotten when time goes by". To me, you are our family's hero and we all would remember you ever unless you are a hero for this country. You don't need to regret for your past as you have done well both your country and family. You would be blessed by all sort of Lord I am sure. I hope you have passed this life peacefully.
We are youth for old.
We are healthy for sick.
This is universal truth, nobody can overcome it even our Lord of Buddha.
Believe you understand this life cycle better than me.
I remember the poem we learned during our high school days.
"For men may come and men may go
but I go on forever"
The brook yelling in the poem, like this, we are coming to this world as a visitor and this will never end. Born and reborn regardless of life.
Finally this, too, shall pass away.
Have a peaceful life there, my beloving brother.
I won't say goodbye to you but salute you for everything you have done for me in life.
Your youngest brother
zmn
sg
170510 (Monday)
No wonder he couldn't become an officer as he educated until high school and didn't pass matriculation exam. As a result of hard working and long term service, he received a sergeant level recently and he luckily able to earn to support his family. Being a father, he raised his family as high as possible and also seek any chance to help his relatives when they need something within his afford. Of course he supported our family when I was school age boy and my parent are too old to work any job. As a soldier, it's hard to find extra money after spending daily necessities, but he tried to manage to support our family regularly. I don't know how did he manage to maintain it. But I understood nowaday as I am already adult as well as working.
I saw him last year when I return Myanmar for my wedding formal celebration. We rarely met each other despite we came from a same source (meaning same family and product of a mother). It can be as far as once a decade. Being a soldier, he'ld find it difficult to take leaves on what he want. For instance, he didn't arrive in time by the time our mother was died. I still clearly remember the day he cried infront of our mother's tumb. We (all siblings) understood his situation and forgiven him. But he felt so sorry and I could able to see his pain through his tearful eyes. He was real soldier with proud and a lot of medals honoured by Government for his achievement. But this all cannot prevent him to cry out when he saw his mother's tumb. He was such a good man to our family.
Our mother died after fighting long time for diabetes and he heritage this killer disease from his mum. Other will say it's due to generation but the result is he follow his mum so early for the same reason. Few years back his elder sister also passed away for the same reason. Altogether there are 10 siblings in my family. He is third sibling to detach from our family tree. We all love each other and support each other since we lost our parent very early. It'ld be always pleasure time when we enjoy union dinner by teasing each other. In fact it's quite difficult to meet all at the same point because all of my siblings are government staffs and they are serving at different towns. Luckily they all try to present my wedding last year and I was of course very happy to see them all at my wedding day and I really felt I am honoured.
Since I am youngest in my family, they all love me uniquely. They always think me and treat me like a child ever. It doesn't matter how old I am and where I am working as well as how high my position is. What a beloving habit. To me they all are my father and mothers. They all are my teachers. They all are my guiding stars. I can't be exist where I am today without their supporting role and irreplaceable encouragement. Gradually my family tree is eroded by time and now left for 7 only. What a sadful story unable to present his final journey? He tried all the way to present my wedding, but I am now failing to go his funeral because I am now working in a foreign country. Hope, as usual, you will understand me for my absent at your final journey. But I'm sure my soul would be there these days and I'll never forget everything you have done for me in this life.
Today afternoon, all my siblings will go your final resting town from the different cities to pay our final respect and tribute as you are our respectful eldest brother who guided us in going a right track. I don't seek your forgiveness for my absent to pay final respect but I believe you'll understand me. I'ld be in Myanmar next week this time and hopefully I can pay my final respect with late effect as you did when our mother was passed away. What a sorrowful life, my big brother? You, being soldier, is not allowed to live in where you enjoy. Me, a shore job worker, not possess my life and even resemble with a robot that can move by its programme. At the end of the day, we are tired of life and the money we always chasing cannot save our lives. I wish you possess the better and peaceful life if any.
Brother, you will always be alive in our memories. We all know you are a dutiful man to your family as well as country. I praised what you have done and achieved in life as a person. I hope I can follow your footstep in nursing my own family as I am now an expectant father. Life is uncertain and we cannot avoid associated risks. Life is nothing by the time we draw a curtain down. Nothing left. Nothing possess. We left our loved ones for another uncertain life if any. Probably some hero would be remembered by his/her peers. But it won't be long lasting. As our traditional saying mention "Dead man would be forgotten when time goes by". To me, you are our family's hero and we all would remember you ever unless you are a hero for this country. You don't need to regret for your past as you have done well both your country and family. You would be blessed by all sort of Lord I am sure. I hope you have passed this life peacefully.
We are youth for old.
We are healthy for sick.
This is universal truth, nobody can overcome it even our Lord of Buddha.
Believe you understand this life cycle better than me.
I remember the poem we learned during our high school days.
"For men may come and men may go
but I go on forever"
The brook yelling in the poem, like this, we are coming to this world as a visitor and this will never end. Born and reborn regardless of life.
Finally this, too, shall pass away.
Have a peaceful life there, my beloving brother.
I won't say goodbye to you but salute you for everything you have done for me in life.
Your youngest brother
zmn
sg
170510 (Monday)
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